Journal Ten: A Free-write

Journal Ten: Unfiltered Free-write

I recommend everyone have a journal or diary that they can write their emotions and feelings in. Freewriting is just one style that allows one to write their emotions without being too critical of oneself. I find that when I over analyze myself I end up not writing anything worth remembering.

It helps to release inhibition and let thoughts flow. It helps to be mindful.

Bed pull the thrills legs come and chill red blood and guts don’t forget love remember love butt anal people create trauma to the soul as insanity flows pen mold creation of life sold to the world government owned cereal flake piece of cake Marilyn Monroe Charles Manson bill Kennedy Freddy Krueger spit a lugar at boot camp drill instructor recruiter tranced in boot her pants come foot her dudes bleed red in the head Afghanistan saves the den leg deadhead lost in dread space time continuum bed closing eyes cloud nine rhyming lines freestyle mind communication prime mental diamonds cut lungs trying to quit lying to my shits dying coughing brian crying lying dying from sighing writing till dying. dead.

Reynaldo Rivera Jr. (2009)

I wrote this free-write in 2009 when I was in the Marine Corps. I have a bunch of journals that I have been trying to write into a book, but I’ve been hypercritical in how I want it to look in the end, which in turn has made me put off completing all the entries. This is a little snippet of one journal entry; journal ten.

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When Media Won’t Fade to Black.

When Media Won’t Fade to Black.

Minority owners in media are not being represented with fairness. First of all, the word “Minority” to define people of color is messed up. Why is skin color so important in America. It’s not just America, because I know in the Philippines skin color is important in media as well. If for some reason you happen to come upon the Filipino channel you’ll see that everyone is as pale as milk. I’m Filipino so I know this isn’t a super accurate portrayal of the country. Just look at my profile picture and you’ll see that I am brown like Norwegian wood.

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The FCC at one point was appointed to regulate the diversity and minority ownership of media companies, but this initiative has fell flat. It is known that the reports they produce are often late, unreliable, and incomplete.

However, we are slowly diversifying and its representation can be seen in media. Have you seen the Crazy Rich Asians movie? I haven’t seen it, but I heard it was good. Or have you seen the Black Panther movie? I haven’t seen it, but I heard it was good. I don’t go out much… and my favorite genre is Horror. I’m a horror nut; pistachio.

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Still, the majority in power within the media conglomerates are white. I live near Hollywood and the nepotism is real. If you want to be in Hollywood you need to either have family or really good friends already working in Hollywood. The only way to make it into Hollywood is to have enough money to create your own movie. Anyone have a couple million dollars laying around? Can I borrow *cough* have $100,000.00? I’ll not, not, not pay you back.

Are there any other countries that put color on such a pedestal? Let me know in the comments below.

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The Spreading Ground.

The Spreading Ground.

I participated in a creative project back in 2017 and found it on Vimeo from an account; lucky dragons. I’m on the thumbnail!

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You can learn more about the artist collaboration Lucky Dragons at:

The Spreading Ground from lucky dragons on Vimeo.

Description from lucky dragons Vimeo channel: Performance / walking meditation for a large group, staged all along the two-mile path along the top of Hansen Dam in the San Fernando Valley. A simple score provided instructions for gathering and dispersing as a group, as well as sung texts unique to each performer. As the group spread across the length of the path, in and around a walking audience, the singers took turns teaching one-another their songs, or, alternately, being completely alone.

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Lov3.

Lov3.

All my life I think of you.

Never stayed no stops;

Lov3 runs right through.

Dangerous passion throbs 24/7.

My heart was robbed; Smith & Wesson.

From lov3 come’s murder; a subsidiary.

Alas, you killed innocence; seminary.

If lov3 is joy then what is sex?

A sin committed, but

Come in child now it's innocent.
 
1 + 1 = 3

Adolescent.

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