2008, January 29, Tuesday.
Suicide is what my father tried to commit the day of the shooting with the officers in his very own home. When he fired his AR15 at the Cops he expected them to fire back and kill him. He wanted them to kill him; assisted suicide. They fired back, but they didn’t kill him.
He was so drugged, and drunk, out of his mind that day he doesn’t remember much of it. I received a letter from him today, and the tone sounded worried. Make sure you write back soon.
My father has been in prison 10 years already. (Note to Reader- It was the year 1998). If he tried killing himself back then what’s stopping him from committing suicide in prison?
Am I the reason he is still alive? Does he want to see me grow into a successful individual before he passes? If so, then I can’t die in combat during my Iraq deployment. For if I did, I would not only take my life away, but my fathers as well. what do I need to do in order to survive and grow even stronger